I woke up, as I was coming from a dream far away. Ingesting life so differently now. I have never fully understood.
“For I know the plans for you” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
I am resting here some place near the water. Fine lines of reasoning.
Where to go from here? Is there a law to follow that brings light? Will you be light? Everything and Nothing? No. More complex. More heart is needed. More sacrifice and truth the condition.
Everything comes together. The companions that you have on your way, trying to help you and me to understand. Patience and love are the virtues of a shepherd.
“Mh, I understand.” Now, there is much work to do, but we can see. I am perfect to myself. Understand, that you not ought to deny your creator. Overcome. Pick it up and lead it to yourself. It is true.
Birds around me singing freely and the sun is warming the body I am in. How beautiful everything is.
Even the plane above me, beautiful, a creation from a human being. One that knew. One that wanted to fly.
What didn’t we achieve. What did we not accomplish with pure rationale. Half asleep, denying and oppressing the capacity of our understanding. For too long.
Small fishes swim freely and hectically by my side in the water; in small groups they swim close, without fear, following their own rules, which I don’t know.
Everything follows its own rules and I myself have to adjust myself to these rules. There are rules and a destiny for all of us.
A Dragonfly comes to me and rests on my paper. How wonderful. And there she goes again, flying freely away from one place to another. Following some rules, which I don’t know.
He fills my life with good things, so that I stay young and strong like an eagle. Psalm 103:5
I have never seen it all so logical and clear. So blind I was. I have seen and felt beauty. I had love for many beings and in particular for those that seem to be weak.
Only the strong I have never really understood, rejected them out of greed and ignorance. Why do they have it all and I don’t?
To have and to be. Is there a difference? Is it the same as the body and the soul?
It is truly unbelievable. I understand. Your heart has been used and abused; all the love; everything taken away. How? The manipulation of comprehension. Why and for what? For power and for money.
What funny values those are. Is that not the first commandment?
Love has been forgotten.
The women and mother – don’t you see, there is no one else more devoted to her than men. So, you woman, give all these men somewhat peace where they can be (men), so that we can be women, according to the law of nature.
So much pain in the name of prosperity. You think you can help somebody, you beautiful being? Your heart demands to help somebody?
Help yourself first. Look at the poison you punish your eyes, ears and noses with.
And there she comes again, the Dragonfly, now resting on my knee.
Flew freely from somewhere, free to chose her place. She chose me.
A friend loves at all times. Proverbs 17:17
What an instinct, what is this trust this Dragonfly has, so that she would come sit with me? What rules is she following?
What a perfect being; stimulating the water here and there, from one place to another, seemingly without considering her way.
Does a fish think about its way? The bird about its song? How do birds find their destinations; do they strategically calculate their ways? Do elephants tell their offspring about the wells? Ask yourself.
And then ask yourself: which laws do you follow?
Are you following good laws or bad rules? Or is there something in between? If you then follow bad and good ones, what is it, that make you follow the bad ones? Are there rules in your game? Is life a game? You say, you fear mortality?
Do not be guided by your fear. No fish, no bird, no Dragonfly is guided by fear. Certainly, they react to it. It is an instinct. They fly or swim away from the tyrann, the bad, but then, are they still fearful once in a different place? I don’t think so. Trust yourself, like the Dragonfly. Trust the laws of nature. You have an instinct.
The Dragonfly that sat down on my knee had no fear. She considered my knee as a good place to rest. It was good. Maybe to welcome me in her home – as her friend. Who knows.
And there she comes for the third time. So many places everywhere for her to find peace and still she chose my knee to linger.
Am I not the biggest tyrann in her world? I could, if I would want to, raise my hand, SLAP, and kill. Take her life. At least the one on earth.
The Dragonfly comes to me freely, as my friend. Her instincts tell her to trust me and so she finds rest on my knee. It makes me joyful and I love her for it. Thank you. Thank you for your trust and for your love.
“Find my way through the darkness, guided by a beating heart.
I don’t know where my journey will end, but I know where to start.”
Thank you, Aloe Blacc.
I know where to start. With my truth. With my light. My heart, my instinct. It will guide me and will lead me to those places that I do not know yet and which I, with letting evil in, could not bring about. But I trust you, because I trust me. Because I know myself.
Rise, shine, for thy light is come and the glory of the lord is risen upon thee. Isaiah 60:1
So there is the beginning. There was light.
See it and feel it and then follow it. It will award you with sight in the darkness and will cast shadows in brightness that blinds you. Vast and dark, as every little malevolence that you cannot suppress towards yourself in front of any other being.
The apple too sweet, too juicy, too satisfying. But withstand, it will not last.
No, overcome and find yourself. Heal yourself and be your own agent of love, so that you can carry it with you freely and so that you can share it with beings.
Because the love for your soul is infinitive, when you allow it, but heal yourself.
Your wounds are deep and I can feel you, you beautiful child. But don’t give up, but think and find your law. Just think you are a creation with purpose and a destiny.
That is what the Dragonfly told me.